
Posted originally on the Archive_of_Our_Own at https://archiveofourown.org/
works/11503032.
  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Underage, Graphic_Depictions_Of_Violence
  Category:
      F/M
  Fandom:
      The_Mortal_Instruments_Series_-_Cassandra_Clare, Shadowhunters_(TV)
  Relationship:
      Clary_Fray/Jace_Wayland
  Character:
      Clary_Fray, Jace_Wayland, Alec_Lightwood, Magnus_Bane, Isabelle
      Lightwood, Jordan_Kyle, Maryse_Lightwood, Robert_Lightwood, Simon_Lewis,
      Jocelyn_Fairchild, Luke_Garroway, Stephen_Herondale
  Additional Tags:
      Unplanned_Pregnancy, Teen_Pregnancy, Vaginal_Sex, Blow_Jobs, Football,
      Substance_Abuse, Drug_Addiction, Heroin
  Stats:
      Published: 2017-07-14 Updated: 2017-12-19 Chapters: 2/? Words: 8140
****** The Heroine Addict's Downfall ******
by misseshermionemalfoy, reppinda5o3
Summary
     Clary and Jace find themselves in hot water when, after a night of
     heavy drinking and sinning Clary ends up pregnant. How will this
     change the future for Jace? Will the football scholarship he's been
     offered have to go the way of the wind? Will Clary be stuck with a
     baby? This story is co-written with reppinda5o3
     Snippet:
     Clary tossed the covers off of her but in the process of getting up,
     she seemed to provoke her morning sickness. She darted to the
     bathroom and heaved into the toilet. Unfortunately, she’d had a late
     snack at around three in the morning when she couldn’t sleep.
     Whatever was left of that came up into the toilet. It was Sunday and
     she was looking forward to Jon heading back to campus.
     There was a knock on the bathroom door. “Yeah?”
     “Are you ok?”
Notes
     So this story is a repost and has been heavily edited and reworked
     from the original. I would nearly go so far as to say that it is
     indistinguishable from the original. My beta is @svraphic on tumblr!
See the end of the work for more notes
***** Chapter 1 *****
Chapter by misseshermionemalfoy
 
 I’m a heroine addict, I need to have sex with women who have saved someone’s
                                     life
                                        
                                 Mitch Hedberg
===============================================================================
 
It was the first game of the season and Clary was warming up with the other
girls. Clary was a cheerleader on Mahopac’s varsity cheer squad. Her best
friend, Izzy, was the captain of the team. “Girls get those hamstrings warmed
up I don’t want anyone pulling a muscle!” It just so happened that if Clary
played her cards right she would succeed Izzy’s spot as captain.
 
Aline, one of the younger girls on the squad was watching the football players
warm up with avid enthusiasm, phone out and all. “Penhallow! Put the phone away
and do 50 jumping jacks.” Isabelle barked at her.
 
“But--!” She stammered.
 
“I don’t want to hear it! We’re here to cheer the boys on not take pictures of
them in their warm-ups.” Izzy barked at Aline.
 
Aline settled next to Clary and started stretching. “She’s a total hardass.”
Aline mumbled to Clary.
 
“She’s actually not that bad considering she has 15 girls and 5 guys to look
after and make sure we all do our stunts correctly.”
 
Aline looked affronted but Clary paid her no mind. Clary had been stretching
for about fifteen minutes and felt like it was time to jog for a little while.
The stands were still empty but in about thirty minutes that would all change.
 
“I’m going to go jog, make sure you warm up!” She said to the Aline.
 
Clary took off at a jog around the track which encompassed the football field.
As she jogged she got a good look at the boys, most of which were her friends.
Jace, the star quarterback was throwing and she caught his gaze as she passed
him, jogging. “Heya Clary, ready for the game?”
 
“You bet, hope you’re ready to throw down!”
 
“Always am!” Jace said, laughing with his other teammates.
 
Clary kept running around the elliptical track and ended up doing 2 laps saying
hello to the various friends she had on the football team. She slowed down to a
walk and finished the third lap walking back to the cheerleaders. “Hey, what’s
everyone doing?”
 
“We’ve got to practice our throwing so Clary get ready.” One of the seniors
said to her.
 
People were starting to file in for the football game and Clary’s heart soared
with excitement. She loved cheering and she loved cheering for this team. What
she loved the most was the after party Izzy was sure to invite her to
afterward.
===============================================================================


Meanwhile, Jace was in the locker room gearing up. Alec was roughhousing with
the other boys the thrum of energy pulsed through the locker room. Jace had
been captain on this team for two years, he’d been the first junior to be
nominated and promoted to captain in 15 years. He was good and he knew it.
 
“C’mon guys stop fuckin’ around.” He grumbles at his teammates.
 
They all laughed but no one followed him as he headed outside. They knew this
was how they won the game. Jace headed out to the grassy patch out of the side
of the locker room and took his helmet with him. He checked to make sure no one
was watching him and he kissed the cross necklace at his throat. Religion
wasn’t a big deal to him but he did believe in a higher power. He had to do
this before every game and the boys knew better than to disturb him while he
was getting his head in the right space for the game. He said a silent prayer
for speed, agility, and strength. He always felt lighter after he requested
guidance. He put his headphones in and turned up the volume.
 
This was another secret of his. He had one song that he listened to before
every game. The Chain by Fleetwood Mac played through his headphones. He got
down in a plank position and started warming up with mountain climbers.
 
Listen to the wind blow, watch the sun rise
 Running in the shadows, damn your love, damn your lies
 And if, you don't love me now
 You will never love me again
 I can still hear you saying
  You would never break the chain
 
He was at 50 mountain climbers. He pushed himself to go faster, harder. His
breath came in measured pants. He knew exactly how to warm up, this was
something he’d done a thousand times. He was at 100 mountain climbers and
decided to switch to push-ups. His throwing arm needed to get a little more
warmed up. He didn’t want to wear out his throwing arm and coach always wanted
him on point so he only did 30 push-ups. He stood up and did 100 jumping jacks
to finish it all off. He was good to go.
 
“Son you better be ready it’s time!” Coach Herondale said.
 
“Yessir.” He said shaking the sweat off.
===============================================================================
 
After all the girls had warmed up and they had practiced a basket toss several
times they’d eaten up all their time to get ready and the girls rallied around
where the boys were going to come out of the locker rooms. Coach Herondale,
Jace’s father, liked to put on as much of show as possible. Clary grabbed her
pom-poms, she could feel the buzz of nervous energy going through her. Jace and
Alec (Jace’s best friend) were up for scholarships this year and even though
there weren’t scouts in the crowd tonight she knew it would be a good game.
 
In the moment she had spaced she noticed her mother was in the stands now and
she waved to her. “Are the boys coming or what?”
 
Just then, Coach Herondale strode out into the crowd and Clary grabbed her pom
poms. The girls broke out into cheering and they waved their pom poms.
 
The team ran out of the locker room, waving to the crowd. Jace came out last
and kept his head down, ignoring the shouts of “Herondale! Herondale!
Herondale!” from the crowd.
 
Clary moved away from the locker rooms and they all gathered in front of the
stands. They huddled together, all twenty of them and Isabelle held court. “Ok
girls, we’re playing against a really good team tonight, the Tartans are a
strong team so our boys are going to need your full attention. She put her hand
in the center and the rest of the girl’s hands followed, including Clary’s. “3-
2-1, go Mahopac Angels!” They shouted and cheered. Through the crowd of people
in the stands Clary could see her mother smiling and waving at her as she got
into formation. Their opening cheer was going to be done to Beyonce’s Freedom.
It was one of Clary’s favorite songs. Clary could smell the kettle corn being
made by the concessions stand and caught a glimpse of someone making cotton
candy. She sighed, Isabelle turned on the music and the kick off started, she
loved  football.
 
She was cheering but she was more focused on the game than anything, Jace had
the ball and he passed it to Alec, then Alec passed to the ball to Jordan. It
was the first down and they’d already moved the ball 15 yards. She came back to
cheer and realized it was time for her first stunt. She had to do a basket
toss. She put her feet on the other girl’s arms and flew into the air. She felt
so free up here. She wasn’t paying attention to the game now, she couldn’t, she
had to focus on the stunt but as she piked with her toes pointed perfectly she
realized she loved being in the air more than anything else in the world. She
took a deep breath as she started to fall back to the ground and she landed
perfectly in the other girl’s arms
 
She got back on the ground and they started a cheer for the offense. “Ten
yards, ten more yards /For our team, it's not hard! / Give me a T-O-U-C-H-D-O-
W-N! / Touchdown! Touchdown! Touchdown!” She rustled her pom poms in the air
and gave a loud whoop.
 
Izzy rallied them and told them to do Spirit Up. Izzy changed the music and
they started cheering. “Angels! / Keep it up! / Come on! / Keep that Angels /
Spirit up!” All the girls shouted in unison.
 
The rest of the game seemed to go by in a blur of completed passes, touchdowns
and field goals. Jace had decimated the rival team with his amazing throwing
arm and she’d cheered him to victory.
 
After the game had been won Izzy said, “There’s going to be a party at Jace’s
you want to come? I know you’re kind of into him.”
 
Clary was pleased to be invited but had no idea how Izzy knew she was into
Jace. “What do you mean ‘I know you’re kind of into him?’” Clary said, puzzled.
 
“You were staring at him the whole game!” Izzy said.
 
Clary shrugged it off. “I’d have to be blind to not be into him.”
 
“Why don’t we go back to your house and I’ll dress you up accordingly?”
 
Mahopac wasn’t far from Clary’s house so they walked back 5 blocks total. When
they got home Luke and Jocelyn were upstairs so Clary safely snuck Isabelle
into her room. There, they picked out some outfits and talked about the game.
 
“You have to admit he’s super fucking hot.” Isabelle babbled in her ear.
 
“Of course he is but that doesn’t mean I want to bang him!” Clary said
flushing. She smoothed over her outfit and gazed in the mirror. She was
impressed with what she saw. Her slim frame was covered in one of Izzy’s
numerous black cocktail dresses that she’d stashed at Clary’s house. This
particular number had a plunging neckline with slits reaching all down the
sides. Risking her mother’s potential wrath, Clary had “borrowed”, her mother’s
favorite pair of black leather heels to tie the outfit together. She was going
to scuff them, she knew it but that was the price you paid for being fashion
forward.
 
Izzy, looking glamorous as usual in a black mini skirt, a shimmering silver
top, and boots that hit just above her knee, looked Clary over appraisingly.
 
“Lipstick.” Was the only comment the raven-haired girl had after a thorough
examination. Snatching a tube labeled “Fresh Blood” in a silver scrawl,
Isabelle grabbed Clary’s face in her hands, artfully applying the color.
 
“How are we getting out of here?” Izzy wondered aloud, as she carefully blotted
Clary’s lips. “You know Luke will never let you out the front door looking
dressed up.”
 
Clary wasn’t sure Izzy’s definition of “dressed up” was the same as the rest of
the world’s. In Alec’s, Izzy’s older brother’s, words, most people would call
Izzy’s “dressed up” more streetwalker chic.
 
“Luke would flip his lid, no doubt. We can just hop out the window and leave
them a note.”
 
“A note?”
 
“I don’t want mom to worry.” Clary said defensively, “We’ll be home by one tops
right?” She said hopefully.
 
“More like three or four. Remember last time we went to one of Jace’s parties?
I’m not even planning on going home tonight. Probably just crash there.”
 
Clary sighed. “I’ll just tell them we went to your house. To have a movie
marathon with Max or something.”
 
“Atta girl!” Isabelle enthused.
 
“Grab your shit. Let’s go.” Clary scratched out a quick note and left it on her
bedside table. Opening the window and hopped out onto the crisp leaves of her
front yard, Izzy on her heels.
 
Jace’s wasn’t far from Clary’s house so they walked. Clary’s feet would hate
her tomorrow but the promise of the night ahead made it worth it. Even at the
other end of the street, they could hear the loud music blasting from Jace’s
house. The golden boy of Mahopac High School parent’s were always out of town.
This made it the perfect place for Mahopac’s number one party spot.
 
Once they pushed past the throng of teenagers on the lawn, Izzy opened the door
to the house. If there wasn’t a bra hanging from the ceiling fan and the
unpleasant aroma of cheap vodka mixed with vomit permeating the air it would
have been a beautiful home. Unfortunately,   that  was  not  the case. Roughly
seventy seniors and juniors from Mahopac High School were packed into the
elegant house. Who knows how many more individuals had come to the party,
spilled out onto the lawn.
 
“Drink, then pong table,” Izzy said, as she grabbed Clary’s hand and pulled her
into the crowd.
 
The kitchen was filled with a veritable cascade of bodies, layered between
thick clouds of smoke. Clary was pretty sure she was getting a contact high
from it all. Finally, they found the liquor. The back counter of the room was
covered with an array of different colored bottles. The girls each poured a
generous helping of vodka into cups, adding a splash of cranberry juice to top
it all off. They fought their way through the haze of people and out into the
dining room. The massive mahogany table was usually used for formal dinners,
but tonight it played host to a very different activity. Beer pong.
 
The captain of the football team held court at the top of the table. His hair
glinted under the fluorescent bulbs of the chandelier, painting him the literal
golden boy of Mahopac High. With a grand five cups left on his side and two on
his opponents, Jace Herondale seemed to be slaying.
 
The competitive side of Clary perked up, “Can Izzy and I play winner”
 
Jace nodded, not taking his eyes off of the game. His commitment and focus was
laser sharp. Behind him, his pong partner Alec, who also happened to be Izzy’s
brother, stared down the competition. Needless to say, they won the game.
 
While the boys re-racked the cups, Izzy and Clary half-heartedly strategized.
The music switched to something more upbeat than the previous song and Clary’s
hips swayed unconsciously. Pulling her curled hair up into a high ponytail, she
and Izzy took their places behind the table.
 
“We go first,” Alec said, folding his arms across his chest, aiming the
intimidating glare he usually saved or the field at his sister and
significantly shorter friend. Jace pulled back his arm and aimed for the front
cup. The ball lands with a distinct ‘plonk’ in the front cup of their rack.
Alec hollered and high fived Jace. Their excitement ended abruptly with a death
glare for Izzy.
 
“You guys gotta drink everything,” Alec said smugly, gesturing to the cups, but
not meeting Izzy’s eyes.  
 
“What!” Clary’s eyes widened.
 
“We didn’t agree to these rules, Alec,” Izzy growled.
 
“House rules!” Alec snapped.
 
Jace nodded coolly, picking up his own cup of beer, “Go on then.” His lips
turned up into the sexy smirk that would have made most of the girls at the
high school drop to their knees. Izzy and Clary just glared.
===============================================================================


It was chilly, but Clary didn’t feel the cold. She was tipsy, definitely, but
she’d sworn to Izzy that she would finish the vodka and cranberry juice from
earlier. Jace stepped out of the house and found her.
 
“You alright? Sorry, Alec was a douche, I shouldn’t have made you and Iz drink
all that beer.”
 
“You know you look amazing tonight?” Jace said softly to her.
 
“You’re just saying that because Izzy dressed me up.” She said flushing
slightly.
 
“Izzy does a damn good job of dressing you up then.” He slung an arm over her
nearly bare shoulders and said, “Aren’t you cold?” There was just barely a
chill in the air that came in early September but Clary wasn’t wearing much and
there were tiny goosebumps on her skin.
 
“Here take my jacket.” He said.
 
“Oh no, that’s ok I was just having a break from all the smoke,” Clary said
smiling up at him.
 
“Alright. Are you sure you’re ok? That  was  a lot of beer and I know you don’t
usually drink much.”
 
“Yeah I’m good, will you dance with me?” Clary asked. She didn’t usually dance
at these parties. She was too embarrassed, too shy, but she’d had a lot of
liquor and Jace was looking at her with an expression she couldn’t quite read.
 
“Yeah, c’mon I know just the song,” Jace said taking her hand in his and
dragging her back inside.
 
Jace and Clary had known each other for years, had many mutual friends and went
to the same school, so she thought she knew plenty about him. When they get
inside they go to what must’ve been the living room (only the furniture was all
pushed to the walls of the room, effectively creating a dance floor) and
changed the song. Clary didn’t know the words to the song but it was catchy and
as they found a place in the middle of the room she started to move her hips.
 
And I hardly hear your voice, it's like you up to somethin'
Why do I always feel alone, but you don't owe me nothin'
 
She knew she wanted to dance with him but the other girls on the dance floor
were all over the boys. She lets her hips follow the beat of the music and Jace
turned her so her ass was flush with his hips. She didn’t know if this was a
good idea… she and Jace were friends and she wasn’t sure how much she wanted to
give into her crush on him. Still, the music thumped on and she kept moving her
hips to the sound of the rhythm.
 
We used to go all night, but now it's just a fuckin' bar fight
I know you hate it when I talk like that
Aw right, you remember prom night
Yeah that was a bomb night
 
When the song ended Clary decided she had something she needed to talk to Jace
about, something that had been bothering her for ages. “C’mon I want to talk to
you about something,” Clary said finishing her drink.
 
Jace looked disappointed that his dance was over but they retreated to the
crowded kitchen and Clary got another vodka and cranberry juice. Jace filled a
cup halfway with ice and tequila. Clary pulled him outside to a nook in the
front yard, where they could be nearly alone.
 
“So what did you want to talk about?” Jace said taking a sip of tequila.
 
“I’m a virgin,” Clary said suddenly and Jace gagged on his tequila. She clapped
him over the back several times and his watery eyes fixed on her.
 
“Yeah, I figured as much since you’re 16. What do you want me to do about it?”
 
“Well..” Clary flushed. “I’ve never thought losing my virginity was a big deal
and I don’t know why girls save themselves for the ‘right’ guy because, face
it, there is no right guy. I just want to get over all that awkward virgin
stuff and... “ It just didn’t make sense to her to wait for the right guy. Jace
was her friend, he was attractive and definitely more experienced than her so
it seemed like a simple solution to a complex problem.
 
“Are you sure Clary?”
 
“Positive.”
 
“Let’s finish our drinks and see where that goes. I’m not saying yes but I’m
not saying no either.” Jace said and Clary smiled. Finally! Someone who would
do this for her.
===============================================================================


Clary was in the process of finishing her drink when she walked by the bathroom
door on the first floor. She saw a dark pool of black hair poised over the
toilet with the door open. “Izzy?”
 
Groaning, Izzy said, “In here!” As her stomach gave another violent retch.
Clary crowded into the bathroom with Izzy and held her hair.
 
“Hey what happened Iz?”
 
“I played truth or dare and got dared to do five shots of Everclear**.”
 
“Oh my god! Iz that’s so stupid you could have really gotten sick!”
 
“I’m fine!” But just then she retched violently into the toilet. “Can you get
my brother?” Izzy asked weakly.
 
“Yeah sure. Stay there.” Clary went back out into the party and found Alec and
Jace playing beer pong at the kitchen table again.
 
“Hey, Alec!” Clary shouted over the music.
 
He had been in the middle of trying to shoot the pong ball, it missed and went
wild. “Damn it, Clary!”
 
“It’s not my fault! Iz needs you, she’s sick.”
 
“Figures I get to be party mom,” Alec said disparagingly.  He made his way to
the front of the house where his sister was waiting for him.
 
Clary stepped away from the pong table and Jace caught her in his grip. “Does
anyone know you asked me to do this?”
 
“No. Izzy knows that we’re friends but that’s something the whole school knows.
She doesn’t suspect that I’d do anything like this.”
 
“Good. I’m 18 and if we do this no one can know.”
 
“Jace, it’s not that big of a deal!”
 
“Yeah, it definitely is. How do you think Luke would feel about this?” Jace
asked and Clary flushed. “That’s what I thought.”
 
“Do you want to just get this over with?”
 
“Yeah, is there a room free upstairs?”
 
“My room is locked so yeah.”
 
“Ok let’s go.”
===============================================================================


Clary thought the whole thing would be rather transactional. But that wasn’t
Jace. The music of the party faded away while they were upstairs and Jace put
on something slow. “Why do you want to do this?” He asked her. “Couldn’t you
wait for someone --- a boyfriend --- who wanted to do this? I mean have you
ever had a boyfriend?” He was sitting on the bed and he pulled her down to sit
next to him.
 
“I’ve never had a boyfriend, I mean… I’ve kissed Simon, but that’s not the same
thing. Iz gets to have so much fun hooking up with people and I get jealous.
The whole no strings attached idea is really appealing to me. I’m not looking
for anything past friends with benefits with a guy ---” She stopped and
realized Jace must think she wanted to friends with benefits with him and
decided she needed to clear that up right away. “I don’t want this to mess up
our friendship. You mean a lot to me Jace, but as a friend. For a girl being a
virgin means not being able to give head because you don’t know how and not
being able to have random hookups whenever you want because you’re afraid it’ll
hurt.”
 
“Isn’t that  exactly  what this is, Clare-Bear?”
 
He only called her that when he was trying to get on her good side, most likely
to try to get her to say she didn’t want this.
 
“Yeah but…” Clary sighed.
 
“You’re on birth control right?”
 
“No. My mom won’t let me.”
 
He frowned. “I have condoms, it’s no big deal.”
 
Clary placed her hand on Jace’s thigh. “Kiss me.”
 
Jace leaned in and kissed her. She kissed him back allowing her hands to trace
through the silky strands of his blonde hair. She pulled his bottom lip into
her mouth and sucked and nipped his lip momentarily earning her a sigh from
him. The slow melody played in the background and the moment seemed frozen
forever in time but then it shattered as she let his lip go with a pop.
 
“You’re a good kisser,” Jace said softly.
 
“Thank you,” Clary said blushing.
 
“You want me to help you take this off?” He said, running his finger down the
plunging neckline of her dress.
 
“Yeah sure.” She stood up and started to unzip the dress, letting him finish
when she couldn’t reach the zipper anymore. It fell in a pool around her feet
and she stepped out of it, revealing a lacy black bra and matching panties.
 
“You look perfect.” He whispered.
 
She leaned in and kissed him again, allowing their tongues to dance for long
moments. As she kissed him, her hands floated down to his white t-shirt and
pulled up the hem, feeling the outline of his ribs over her fingers. Only when
the need for air and more skin to skin contact became an issue did she break
the kiss.
 
“Put your hands over your head.” She asked him and he complied and she tugged
the shirt off him. She reveled in the fact that he was built like a god, all
hard angles of muscle and bone. It was so much better than she hoped for. Her
mouth found it’s way to his neck and she latched onto him, kissing and sucking
the long column of his neck. He let out a little whimper as she sucked lower,
towards his collarbone.
 
“Clary, you’re sure?”
 
“Of course I’m sure.” She said, surfacing for air.
 
“Get on the bed, honey.”
 
She flushed the color of her hair. She wanted this so much, so, so much. “Ok.”
She got on the bed and slipped off her panties, laid bare for him. “Let me suck
you off.”
 
“You don’t have to,” Jace said, running his fingers through her hair.
 
“I want to,” Clary said smiling up at him, clumsily she unbuckled his belt and
laid him down on the bed, she unbuttoned his pants and shimmied them down to
his knees. He was almost bursting out of his jeans he’s so hard and when she
fishes him out of his boxers she’s surprised how big he is. He’s not huge but
still, she doesn’t know how she’s going to fit all of  that  inside her.
 
She nestled herself in between his legs and pulls his cock into her mouth. He
tastes good… she bobs her head up and down a couple times on him and he takes
one of her hands and puts it on his shaft. “Jerk me while you suck.” He
muttered to her. His eyes were closed and he looked pretty blissed out. She
could feel how wet she was, too. She wanted to go further with him but sucked
his cock a little longer. When gentle whimpers of “Clary!” start tumbling from
his lips she figures it’s time.
 
“I’m ready are you?” She asks him.
 
“Yeah.” He rasps.
 
She lies down next to him and pulls her panties down. She looks at him through
her eyelashes and  damn  is it just the alcohol or does it almost seem like the
light glinting off his hair makes a halo?
 
“It’s going to sting at first but I promise I’ll make you feel good.” He says
as he takes out a condom.
 
“Ok.”
 
He flopped down on the bed next to her and smirked. He took one of her nipples
in his mouth and sucked gently. Desire bloomed behind her navel. If this was
what she was missing out on then she was glad she was discovering it now.
 
He let her nipple go with a pop and gently touched the inside of her thighs
with the tips of his fingers, dragging them down to the inside of her knees and
gently nudging her knees open. He slipped a finger inside her and pressed his
thumb  there , rubbing in small circles.
 
“Jace!” Clary whined. And then he did it, he did something inside of her that
made the heat in her belly coil.
 
She heard a condom wrapper tearing but she was so blissed out she honestly
wasn’t paying much attention. “You ready?”
 
He said as he lined himself up with her. “Yeah just do it.”
 
He pushed into her and she could feel something tearing and a surge of pain,
erasing her pleasure. “Shhh, it only lasts for a minute.” He calmed her.
 
“Just don’t move yet ok?” Clary whimpered. She could feel her virginity being
torn away and it stung terribly but as he stayed still inside her she could
feel the feeling of pain being replaced by a feeling fullness that was
enjoyable even if it did burn slightly. So he stayed still for long moments
until her hands wrapped around his back and she pressed him closer to her. “Ok,
go ahead.”
 
Gently he started rocking inside her and it felt… tight --almost like he was
too big for her small frame. His strokes were slow and gentle as if he knew the
honor he’d been given by taking her virginity. The too tight feeling was slowly
giving way to pleasure as he started to fuck her a little more quickly. Soon he
was really, actually fucking her and the whole room was filled with the sound
of her soft whimpers and his harsh breaths. He reached between them and found
that  spot. She could feel the coil of pleasure in her belly building and
building this was an incredible feeling and she couldn’t believe what she’d
been missing out on. Soon the pleasure was so great she was scratching his back
with her nails and she realized she was on the edge. Jace’s movements became
more jerky, less predictable and she felt like she was flying. White stars
burst behind her eyes as she rode out her first climax.
 
Jace rode out his own orgasm seconds later and stopped moving inside her,
pulling out ruefully. Jace rolled off her and tangled their fingers together.
“Are you alright?” He said breathing heavily.
 
“Yeah, it felt good.” She said with a smile, looking over at him. He kissed her
sweetly on the lips. “I’m so tired.” She said as her eyes drooped lazily.
 
“Don’t worry you can crash here tonight I’ll get something to clean up with and
you can go to sleep.”
 
“Thanks, Jace.” He pulled the condom off and gasped.
 
“Oh fuck.” He groaned.
 
“What?” She said sleepily.
 
“The condom broke.”
 
“What?! Oh my god.”
 
“You should take a shower and try to get as much of it out of you as possible.”
 
But the alcohol was catching up with her. She didn’t know if she could stand in
the shower. “Help me?”
 
He decided carrying her was the best course of action and it dawned on him how
stupid he’d been. He’d gotten an underage girl drunk and then slept with her,
even if he did have her explicit permission to do this he didn’t think it’d end
well if anyone found out about this.
 
Clary was feeling so sleepy so she let sleep take her over and closed her eyes.
 
Jace was getting worried when she stopped talking to him. He showered her off
as best he could and grabbed a towel from the closet to dry her hair. God, he
hoped this wasn’t going to come back to bite him in the ass. His alcohol-
induced haze was swiftly clearing and turning into panic. When her hair was dry
he laid her in bed with a bucket by the bed and turned the music off. There was
nothing he could do right now.
 
So he laid down and turned off the light and hoped the sweetest girl he knew
didn’t just turn his life upside down.
 
***** Chapter 2 *****
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       "Sometimes I fall more in love with an echo than the real thing"
                                  Shinji Moon
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Clary woke up the next morning and looked around at the posters on the walls.
She didn't recognize the posters or the blue-ish paint on the walls. Then she
turned her head and saw a mass of finely curled blonde hair next to her head.
She wasn't a virgin anymore, they'd done it! There was a dull ache between her
legs but that thought was quickly surpassed by the roiling in her stomach. She
darted from the bed and made for the bathroom. The contents of whatever was
left from the previous night ended up in the toilet bowl. She went to hold her
hair but notices someone has already pulled it back. Jace is standing over her
looking troubled.
 
"You alright?"
 
"Yeah, I'm great," Clary said weakly.
 
"Let me get you some water."
 
"Thanks."
 
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Makeup smudged and doing the proverbial walk of shame out of Jace's house she
stumbles on Izzy passed out next to Alec on the couch.
 
"Iz?"
 
Izzy wakes up with a fright. "Clary!" Izzy said, sitting up too fast. She held
her head at the temples and groaned. "How're you feeling? I feel like I got hit
by a truck."
 
"Same basically. C'mon you can come over for breakfast."
 
When Clary arrived at her house she almost had her key in the door when Luke
opened the door and stared down parentally at her. "Where were you last night?"
 
"I left you a note!" Clary squeaked.
 
"After you escaped out your window dressed like a hooker..." But there's no
malice in his voice. Luke's voice falls off, he rolled his eyes and swung the
door open. "Hello, Izzy."
 
"Hi, Luke," Izzy said laxidazily.
 
"I guess I shouldn't ask if you two were good because judging from the state of
you both the answer is no."
 
Clary and Izzy said nothing but looked down at ground shamefully.
 
"C'mon your mother is making chocolate chip pancakes," Luke said, as he waved
them inside.
 
Izzy smiled and Clary jumped up and down. Jocelyn stepped up behind Luke and
said, "Go change into something more appropriate girls."
 
Izzy and Clary went to change and as soon as the door was closed Izzy posed her
question that she'd clearly been dying to ask, "So where did you go last night?
We tried to play pong with Jace and Alec and lost and then you disappeared
outside. I don't remember anything else." Clearly, Izzy was trying to get the
post-party digs and Clary was only too happy to spill.
 
"Oh I went outside and smoked and you got dared to do shots of Everclear and I
had to get Alec to take care of you," Clary said as she toed off her mother's
heels which were slightly scuffed.
 
"That's shitty." Izzy bemoaned. "How'd you spend the rest of the night?" Izzy
said as she shimmied out of the silvery top from the night before and rummaged
through Clary's drawers to find some of her own clothing stashed at the back of
the dresser.
 
"I danced with Jace and we kind of hooked up." Clary supplied a little
begrudgingly. She slipped out of the cocktail dress from the night before and
unclasped her bra. Being on the same cheerleading team, they'd long ago lost
any sense of shame when it came to their bodies.
 
"What!" Izzy said in surprise as she stopped halfway through unzipping the
skirt she was trying to change out of.
 
"Yeah, I just didn't want to be virgin anymore. It's so boring." Clary said as
she tugged on cheer shorts.
 
"Well, I guess that was good to get it out of the way but isn't Jace kind of
old for you? He's 18 right?" Izzy said as she resumed unzipping the skirt and
discarded it onto Clary's bedroom floor as she too pulled on matching hot pink
cheer shorts.
 
"Yeah, he is."
 
"Was it good?" She said wiggling her eyebrows.
 
"Ugh." She said trying to remember what had happened. She remembered most of
the foreplay and sucking him off but she didn't remember most of the deed. "I
barely remember it. Anyway, the condom broke." Clary said as she pulled a t-
shirt over her head.
 
"What! Oh my god Clary, that's serious we should go get the morning after pill
like right now!" Izzy said a little too loudly.
 
"It's no big deal, he put me in the shower afterward I think we got it all,"
Clary said plaintively. "And be quiet!"
 
"Still, Clary!" Izzy's tone was warning, "You never know, yanno?" Izzy's voice
sounded like an ominous warning, more ominous than the sound of her mother
screaming when she found out. Jocelyn could be an overprotective momma bear and
even then… that would be nothing to how her brother would behave if he found
out.
 
"Yeah, I know. But I don't have any money!" Clary said rifling around in her
purse. She opened it and emptied the contents onto the bed. An explosion of old
receipts, library material, and candy wrappers burst onto the bed but as Clary
rummaged through it there were only a few spare ones. " I think it's like 50
dollars!"
 
"Shit…" They finished getting changed and Izzy pulled on her t-shirt in
silence.
 
Clary's phone went off and she looked to see it was Jace.
 
[ J. Herondale ] How're you feeling Clare-bear?
 
[ C. Fray ] Like shit but I'll live. You?
 
[ J. Herondale ] Aww. Do you want to have lunch later?
 
[ C. Fray ] Yes, please. Should we talk?
 
[ J. Herondale ] Yeah I think so. Last night was perfect I hope you remember
some of it?
 
She thought for a minute. It was hazy but she definitely remembered most of it.
 
[ C. Fray ] Yeah I remember!
 
[ J. Herondale ] See you around 1:30?
 
[ C. Fray ] Yup.
 
"Jace wants to have lunch with me," Clary said happily as she removed her
makeup from the previous night.
 
"Damn, he's one fine piece of ass. If you're interested in him you better snap
him up!" Izzy said, as she too removed her makeup from the previous night.
 
"I plan on it if he'll have me. Doesn't he have kind of an on-off girlfriend?"
Clary said uncertainly. Clary had been too drunk to think that Jace might
potentially have another girl on the line.
 
"Yeah! Kaelie Whitewillow. I don't know if they're on or off but I hope they're
off for your sake!" Izzy said speaking in tones louder than were strictly
necessary for this topic.
 
"Oh my god Izzy! What if he cheated on Kaelie with me?" Clary said in horror
 
"Then you're going to incur some very serious wrath from her. It could be bad.
You should ask him about it. Honesty is the best policy. Tell me how it was
though!"
 
"What?! It was pretty transactional. I mean he was really sweet and kind and
gentle but yeah, I just didn't want to be virgin anymore."
 
"And he agreed?" Izzy said chucking a tube of lip gloss at her friend.
 
Clary ducked but it hit her in the ear all the same. "Yes! Iz! Ouch! But you
can't tell anyone because he's 18 and he could get into trouble!"
 
"You're jailbait, Clary…" She said warningly.
 
Clary shrugged. "I don't think it'll be that big of a deal. Jace is a big boy,
he can handle himself."
 
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Lunch time came fast and Clary was still feeling hungover. She was vaguely
aware of the last time she'd gone to one of Jace's blow out parties and had
sworn off drinking, she thought she might have to do something similar now.
 
As far as she knew she was just meeting Jace at his place since he hadn't
specified anywhere in particular. She rang the doorbell once and was greeted
moments later by Jace, shirtless clad only in sweatpants rolled at the waist.
"C'mon in. I've got some burgers on the grill."
 
"That sounds delicious." She said coming and removing her sandals and padding
out to the deck with him. It didn't go unnoticed that the mess from last night
was largely not cleaned up. There was the same sneaker and a bra hanging from
the ceiling fan in the living room from the last night, plus several additions
and the kitchen was a filthy mess of over turned red Solo cups and empty multi-
colored booze bottles.
 
"Let me just check the burgers and we can talk for a few minutes."
 
"Do you need help cleaning up from last night?" Clary said as she sat down at
the patio outside. This had been cleared off of Solo cups and various ashes
from people smoking. The table gleamed and it was set for two people.
 
"What? Oh no, Alec and some of the guys are coming back tonight and we're just
going to make a mess again. My dad doesn't get back for another month from
London so we're good." He said as he flipped the burgers.
 
"Oh alright. So what should we talk about?"
 
"Well, I just wanted to make sure you were ok with what happened last night
since you were pretty drunk."
 
"I remember most of it, it's not a big deal. I'm fine." She said, smiling at
him.
 
"Did you want there to be more than just the one time?" He said, poking the
burgers on the grill and smirking over his shoulder at him.
 
"Well…" Clary sighed, this was getting into dangerous friends with benefits
territory. She didn't want that. "Aren't you with Kaelie?" If she could have
Jace to herself she would definitely snap him up. Boys like Jace were never
single for long. It was important to her that they start on terms of honesty.
Last night had been a crazy drunken decision that didn't show her in her best
light. If they were going to try for a relationship out of this mess then it
was important to her that they do it right.
 
"Not really, she's my ex," Jace said as he got the burgers off the grill.
 
Clary looked up at him as she placed a burger and bun in front of her. She
didn't know…he was probably just asking her to be one of the supposedly many
girls he kept around on the side. Hadn't she just seen Jace with Kaelie the
other day though? She didn't want him to try to play her.
 
"So you're not involved with her at all?" Clary asked, putting ketchup on her
burger. If she asked for the truth, she doubted he would try to deceive her.
 
Jace sighed, "Not really." He said.
 
"Ok..." Clary felt like he was skirting the issue. 'Not really' probably meant
they were still fucking. Which made her feel like just another chick he was
keeping on the side.
 
"She doesn't mean anything to me, Clary," Jace said, a definitive note in his
voice. "I'd be happy to never speak to her again if it meant I got to call you
my girlfriend."
 
Clary flushed. "Why don't you talk to her first and then we can talk about
that? I don't want to encroach on another girl's territory."
 
Jace gave a derisive snort. "Kaelie is very territorial. But if we date we'll
kind of have to keep it on the down-low because you're sixteen."
 
"Let me look up the law on that before we go any further," Clary said. She
didn't want to get Jace in any trouble. She looked up "Statutory Rape Laws in
NY" she tapped on the first Google result. She read for a minute and then
looked up at him.
 
"The article says the age of consent is 17 but there's something called the
Romeo and Juliet law that allows for underage teens to consent if they're
within two years of each other's age. We're good."
 
"Oh, that's good news," Jace said as Clary put her phone away. "I'll get back
to you later today about Kaelie. She and I haven't been getting along very well
lately so I'm sure she'll be glad to get rid of me. Shouldn't you think about
getting Plan B because of last night? I don't want and whoopsies."
 
Clary flushed. She couldn't imagine getting pregnant. She had half a mind to
ask him if she could borrow the money for the morning after pill if they were
going to make a stab at dating. Asking a friend for money was weird but asking
someone you'd just slept with was even weirder. "I think it's like 50 dollars
and I'm broke as a joke."
 
"Can't you get it for free at the clinic?"
 
She raised her eyebrows. She didn't know that and she'd never been to the free
clinic. "Uh yeah, I guess you could. I've never been, honestly."
 
"You should go and get on birth control and the morning after pill." He said
licking some ketchup off his thumb. "If we're going to actually date it's
probably a good idea."
 
She flushed red. She thought of having romantic, slow sex with Jace and it gave
her tingles down her spine. "Yeah, it probably is."
 
It dawns on her that she didn't want to go to the free clinic alone… maybe Izzy
would go with her? "Will they help me because I'm underage?"
 
"Definitely. Alec's been going there for ages for STD screenings, which, by the
way, you should do since the condom broke last night, I could go with you." He
said opening a coke with his sticky fingers.
 
She flushed, if possible, a deeper shade of crimson. "You don't have anything
do you?"
 
"I got tested four months ago so I don't think so but it's always better to be
safe than sorry. Kaelie isn't exactly known for her loyalty and I'm sure she's
been passed around half the football team at this point."
 
Clary cringed. What was Jace doing with a girl like that? "Well, it would be
great if you could come with me. Izzy is really under the weather from last
night." She was overwhelmed, albeit momentarily, how sweet Jace was being about
this.
 
"Yeah sure, are you done eating?" She'd eaten about half of a very large burger
and decided she was done.
 
"Yeah, I'm good. Thanks for lunch."
 
"No problem."
 
Jace grabbed the keys to his Audi and they headed out the door. The waiting
room at the free clinic was deserted and it was a good thing they'd come when
they did, the clinic closed in an hour. She got there and stuttered as she
tried to speak to the woman, gracefully Jace took over, "We both need STD
testing and my friend needs the morning after pill."
 
The secretary nodded and they took a seat. There was a very pregnant girl
reading a magazine in the corner but other than that it was just them. The
nurse called Jace first and Clary waited patiently for her turn.
 
When the nurse called her name she was nervous. She led her to a room with
diagrams of uteruses and vaginas. "I just need you to sign here for the HIV/
AIDS testing."
 
Clary signed her name and the nurse took some blood. She hated it and needles
scared the crap out of her but she had to do this. "The doctor will be in
momentarily. Take off everything from the waist down."
 
Now Clary was really nervous. The nurse had left a horrible paper gown for her
and as she put it on she felt like this was the world trying to punish her for
being reckless. Luckily, she only had to wait a few minutes for the doctor to
arrive. A petite Asian woman introduced herself as Dr. Moon.
 
"Clary I'm just here to get a swab to send back to the lab to check for any
bacterial infections in your vagina." Clary gulped. "Put your feet in the
stirrups for me please?"
 
Clary scooted her tiny body down and waited for the whole thing to be over.
 
Before she knew it Dr. Moon said she was done and she asked, "I understand you
need the morning after pill as well? It seems like you lost your virginity last
night am I right?"
 
"Yes, Dr. Moon. My… friend is in the waiting room."
 
"It was nice of him to come with you," The doctor said and Clary smiled.
 
"Let me get you your emergency contraception. What do you plan on using in the
future for contraception?"
 
"Condoms?" Clary said weakly. She didn't want to talk about this.
 
"Did your friend use a condom last night?"
 
"He did. But it broke."
 
"Always best to have a backup method of birth control before these things
happen. How would you feel about going on the pill? Anything I give you today
doesn't come back to your parents so you don't have to worry about that."
 
Clary breathed a sigh of relief. "Yes, please that would be wonderful."
 
"It's still possible to get pregnant even with the morning after pill. If
you've ovulated then the pill won't be much use. You should do a pregnancy test
if your period is late." Dr. Moon listed off some instructions for taking the
morning after pill and left Clary to get dressed.
 
Clary walked out of the clinic and noticed how chill Jace was being about all
this. "Nothing really shakes you does it?"
 
"Try not to let shit get to me, no."
 
"She said I could still get pregnant if I've ovulated."
 
Jace grimaced. "I'd rather not know the particulars, Clary."
 
"Sorry." She said weakly.
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